International Babylost Mother's Day

Some very dear friends posted these on my facebook. It was so sweet of them. Yesterday was International Babylost Mother's Day. A day to celebrate the mothers' who didn't get to keep their children. A day that no one should have to recognize, but unfortunately we do and I am grateful. I am thankful for all of the love and support from friends. I am thankful when others remember Connor and let me talk about him; about what he was and what he could have been.

So yesterday, Jim and I honored our son and my loss. Jim bought me a candle that I can light for Connor. We brought out Connor's DVD ultrasound when we were 20 weeks pregnant. It was so nice to see him move and wiggle and see his sweet little nose and lips and feet and hands and belly. To see him whole and healthy and complete. I believe that this was the only time that we saw him completely whole. So I try to cherish these moments whenever I can and remember how hard Connor fought to be with us and that on some level, he is still with us. With me.

Thank you Connor, for making me a Mommy. I love you so much.