Happy 2nd Birthday My Sweet Connor!

Well, today Connor is 2 years old. It's hard to believe it's been two years since Connor was born and passed away. It has been a pretty crazy two years as we reflect back on everything that has happened. We miss our little man so much and especially this year when I am so very pregnant and there are so many commonalities between this pregnancy and Connor's.

Two years ago I was anxiously awaiting the birth of our first son. I was so excited about Christmas in our new house and thinking about how much more fun it would be the following year when he would be a year old. Then a year came around and I was dreading the holidays because everything I was looking forward too wasn't going to happen. Instead I was doing my best to get through the holidays while finding ways to honor our son.

Now it's 2010 and Connor is two today and I am pregnant again and due at the same time. We are trying our best to be hopeful and so badly want to bring this new little guy home. We definitely have not taken a single day for granted with this little boy and are anxiously awaiting his arrival. However, that anxiety doesn't just come from excitement; it comes from fear. So Jim and I have been working through this holiday season with anxiety. We have enjoyed the time together and with family while also being very cautious and sometimes very scared.

So today we focused on Connor. We went to visit Connor today to wish him a happy birthday. I always appreciate the time we can spend with him and thinking of his strong heart and his fight to survive. I hope that strength and will is carried on to his little brother and that he is watching over him.

Happy Birthday Baby! I love you!!!