Two Months

This past Saturday, March 7, 2009, was the two month anniversary of Connor's passing. It was a really hard day but found that it was a little bit easier to process than the one month anniversary. I guess it does get easier with time, but I do believe that the pain will never quite go away, and I think that's okay. We will never forget Connor. He is so beautiful and taught us how to love in a way that we never thought possible.

One thing we did on Saturday was pull out our ultrasound DVD at 20 weeks. It was nice to see him move and squirm in my belly. We could even see his beautiful profile and sweet little nose, mouth and eyes (actually the orbits, but it counts). Jim thought Connor looked like him, and though we argue about it sometimes, I think he is right! Maybe he is just a really good mix of his mom and dad.

We have been so fortunate to have such wonderful people around us to help us through this tough time. I believe that has really helped us work through our grief, which by the way, really is work! It is all consuming, but we have really learned a lot. I am learning to appreciate the grief process and that there really is joy and beauty in sorrow. Connor has taught us so much, and continues to do so, but that doesn't mean that I don't miss him. I would give anything to hold him again. I love you, Connor!